Saturday 17 July 2010

Numb

I feel so numb...

Nothing upsets me, makes me happy, annoys me any more....

I feel like i'm drowning but I just don't care!

My favourite baby from work has died, I have know and cared for her for her whole life - all 16 months. But I can't cry... It just doesn't feel real.

My boyfriend got some amazing news from work, I smiled, congratulated him and played the good girlfriend but I just feel sedate!

I want to care, I want to feel but I can't. This worries me more than any of my eating disorder stuff.

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